Daily Trixie

• 08:41 It’s snowing big, wet, slushy flakes. #
• 11:34 Waking up too early to gaze at the snowfall has thrown me out of whack. Had to take a nap. Need some lunch. #
• 13:21 Made to-do lists for this week. Entering stuff in food diary. Settling in to work on email for an hour or so. #
• 14:08 Instead of email, I wrote & posted this catch-all blog post: tinyurl.com/2lmhq7 — NOW emails! #
• 16:27 Is "Fertile Trixie" a misnomer? tinyurl.com/2jkgdp #
• 16:47 Having a hard time getting through the emails in my box. Maybe I need to have a snack & a break from the computer . . . #
• 17:50 I can see Delia is ass-deep in a private show and her GROUP show is going to start in 8 minutes! How will she do it all? #
• 18:08 Woops! I forgot that her show doesn’t actually start for a whole other hour. Got her show time mixed up with mine. I’m a jackass. #
• 22:35 Taking a bath after having quiche and watching our embarrassing Sunday night television shows (Extreme Makeover Home Edition & Big Give). #
• 23:56 Jesus; if I counted up how many crossdresser jokes one encounters in entertainment on a daily basis I’d be . . . like . . . counting a lot. #
• 00:09 Upskirt shots highlighting my blood-soaked maxi pad: tinyurl.com/3aymqy #
• 00:30 This gallery upload is taking forever so I’ll post it for members tomorrow. Going to hit the sack. #

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• 09:51 Boo to bad cramps that made my first 2-3 hours of trying to sleep last night torture. Yay to feeling splendid (and gooshy) this morning. #
• 09:59 Have to eat breakfast then start getting ready for show day. Need to do some cleanup in my room & on my body. #
• 12:33 Going to reset my machine. For what I hope will be optimal performance during my show (is it optimum or optimal? Hmmm. . . WORDS). #
• 12:48 I accidentally look like a boy for my show. Afterwards I think I’m going to need a nap since cramps robbed me of full night of sleep. #
• 14:03 Ahhhh . . . the viewers camz network have been a lot nicer than usual the past few weeks; shows have been really enjoyable. #
• 15:40 Going for a brisk walk alone. #
• 17:05 Oh soooooooooo tired. Would go to sleep now if I didn’t have a show coming up in less than an hour. Would a half hour nap work? #
• 17:06 There’s a weird flavor in my mouth that makes me think either my apple ginger cider or seaweed ricecakes are off. Or is it just the combo? #
• 17:43 I look like death warmed over; in a great mood but my energy level is super-low; my show will be a bore. Too tired to masturbate. #
• 17:59 To expect in my show starting now: in panties: kotex. On stereo: Explosions in the Sky. General atmosphere: remains to be seen. #
• 19:07 Wow. I think my past 6 or so shows have been extremely pleasant. What could account for the change in energy? Bangs? Shaved pussy? Easter? #
• 19:08 I didn’t even get any freak-outs when I stuck my diving nun dildo into my dripping-with-blood cunt. Very unusual; I like it. #
• 19:40 What is going on with the world? Everywhere I turn, people are insanely nice, lovable, and rainbow-riddled! And it’s not even annoying me! #
• 20:59 Going to work on getting my catalog & magazine hoarding under control; throwing stuff away, organizing what I keep & setting limits. #
• 22:22 Going to do some stretching and pick out a book to read before bed after that. #
• 22:55 Had a really awesome, balanced, wonderful day today. Looking forward to starting a new week tomorrow on the right foot. #

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• 09:27 It’s 9:25 am; I just got up. My period is due today. I hope dreaming about a retarded baby instead of bleeding means I’m pregnant. #
• 11:21 Encoding some video, messing with music files, listening to a gorgeous version of a song I otherwise loathe: Mandolin Rain. #
• 11:32 Who does your favorite version of Frankie & Johnny? That song hardens my nipples. #
• 11:58 On what version did Napster decide to make it impossible to burn a cd? This has never happened to me before. Itunes & Napster both chap. #
• 12:48 Hungry, crampy, and I feel like I’m PMSing. Experiencing numerous time-sucking tech problems for things that should be simple. #
• 13:02 My period just started. Cried on the toilet. Need to set some time aside for us to schedule dr. appts & spooge rationing for shows, sex, etc #
• 13:06 FYI: I haven’t been responding to email much lately so nothing personal if you haven’t heard from me. Today? Really not feeling chatty. #
• 13:31 The longer, more self-centered version of "my period started" tweet: tinyurl.com/38pm32 #
• 13:48 I still appreciate that there are worse things than not being pregnant: like being my sister, with evil flu sickness, & baby wanting to play #
• 13:56 Going to have some soup and an anti-inflammatory pill for cramps that are mild . . . for right now, at least. #
• 15:58 Crampy, crampy . . . CRAMPY. The thought of doing shows tomorrow is very unappealing, but could actually be helpful. We’ll see. #
• 16:24 Shouldn’t watch Discovery channel when you’re having infertility issues; I see myself in depression med ads, not pampers ads & baby shows. #
• 18:31 Petting/massaging our dog reminds me to embrace our animal intuition to lean right into pleasure. LEAN. IN. Tilt towards what feels good. #
• 19:59 Just had dinner & watched LA Ink. Grabbing a calendar & lighting some candles now for us to figure out what to do re: trying to conceive. #
• 21:16 Taking a bath / getting ready to shoot a little solo period porn picture set. #
• 21:21 I doubt I’m even going to be able to zip up the dress I want to wear for good pad-in-sheer mesh panty upskirt shots. Too hefty. #
• 22:39 Oh god — editing pics and getting weepy over Willie Nelson singing "Angel Flying too Close to the Ground". Kills me!! #
• 00:28 Getting ready for bed. Feeling hungry & crampy, but actually in a great mood. Guess there was nowhere to go but up today. #

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• 09:58 Did I mention I’m awake? I am, & trying again to mimic graphics I made for my members-only area in different colors, sizes, etc. for Delia. #
• 10:03 Here are screenshots of our current member areas for comparison: mine: tinyurl.com/2l7wv2 & Delia’s: tinyurl.com/32wtwt #
• 10:14 I need to interrupt my work for some breakfast, deep breathing & a round of prioritizing. #
• 10:44 I feel like I could use another hour of sleep. I could also use an extra 12 hours a day to work, though. Can’t always get what you could use #
• 13:04 Ahhh, sweet relief; I just dropped a gigantic log in the toilet. Did that earn me a nap? Head is oozing fuzzy sleepiness, craving blankets. #
• 13:17 Finally; got a few promo galleries finished. Need to email affiliates now. Samples: tinyurl.com/29mhol & tinyurl.com/ytl58v #
• 13:49 Irritated; passed up going for exercise with Delia earlier to take a class later which I just learned is a no go due to renovations. #
• 13:54 Potty cam is down because Delia was editing video & I’m going to hide off cam for a bit; embarrassed about how tired/low-energy I feel. #
• 15:17 Just enjoyed watching/hearing/feeling an innocent bout of hail. Going to take a bath now. #
• 16:10 Oops; I fell asleep instead of taking a bath. NOW I will take the bath since I no longer feel like conking out. #
• 17:31 Doing all the little time-consuming tasks associated with the simplest promos. I FUCKING HATE checking every fucking link myself. WASTE. #
• 17:34 Sorry to whine; I know the more of this I do myself now, the closer I get to being able to hire some drone to do my bitch work. #
• 17:57 I wouldn’t have the luxury to bitch about my webmaster duties if not for Delia doing 99% of the housework. She’s busting ass now, in fact. #
• 18:09 Price increase for my net radio station jumped up; I either need to enjoy it more & make it effective as ad tool OR give it up. Good push? #
• 19:01 Getting hungry. Promised each other no TV today/tonight. Uploading music to try to justify radio station expense to myself. #
• 19:17 Totally want to take a pic of Delia while she cleans; she looks SO cute but I know it would make her mad. Oh, the tears of Trixie . . . #
• 19:56 Bought TrixieRadio.com today. Had on to-buy list for years. Hard to juggle/balance/prioritize ideas for development. Why I hate little tasks #
• 20:22 Breaking today’s no-tv rule. Posted my boring thoughts on radio stuff: tinyurl.com/36oegx #
• 21:34 Just watched America’s Best Dance Crew finale & letting ourselves watch one more show I’m less inclined to admit to. Then books! #
• 22:44 Trying to decide whether I should do a couple of hours of work or try to get to sleep early; leaning towards sleep. #
• 22:54 New playlist on shuffle: www.live365.com/stations/whipsofopinion ; 5+ hours of stuff you might not have heard in months or years. #
• 22:55 Unless, of course, you listen to my spycams/shows a lot. I need to buy & rip more music & harvest entire cd collection for .mp3s. Overdue. #

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• 06:54 Up early for the disappointment of another negative pregnancy test. Going back to bed & pulling the covers over my head. #
• 10:23 Getting ready to make the trek to suburbia / mall-land for Delia’s laser appointment. We’ll be gone for many hours eating fast food. #
• 10:34 Can’t stop smelling my fingers; yummy cunt scent — so hot . . . and soothing. #
• 18:53 Just got home; looking forward to warming up in bed, eating and vegging out. #
• 20:51 Confession: went to the store to procure unhealthy snackydoodles to eat while watching Idol, ANTM, & The Oprah on Hoarding Pt. 2. #
• 21:31 I think I need to start wearing real shoes instead of slippers in the house; my range of motion in hips is getting fucked up by shuffling. #
• 23:55 Going to brush my teeth & read more of the magnificent Sarah Waters before bed & what I hope will be a productive work day tomorrow. #
• 00:11 I lied. I’m doing some work first before I get in bed with that book. #
• 00:27 OK; NOW I will go to bad after adding dorky & hot handful of porn to trixie.com. I’m unsure if the galleries refresh properly for all though #

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• 09:34 Just established a "boycott" section on WebWhoreBucks. I don’t even believe in boycotts, but it will help me remember who to hate hardest. #
• 09:48 Correction: not that I don’t *believe* in boycotts, I just think they should be used wisely/efficiently. Not being wise now, just sensitive. #
• 10:29 Perhaps some turkey bacon with my oatmeal & blueberries will soothe my savage beast . . . yes, I believe it will. Tummy growling. #
• 11:19 Getting back on track/calming self by doing some brain-dead tgp work/porn-surfing. 30 minutes on the timer and . . . go!! #
• 13:34 Waiting to poop and then I’ll take a shower in order to wash prick judgments about our parental suitability out of my hair. #
• 14:17 Old ranty/celebratory blog draft I finally just posted (with pussy pic): $pread ‘Em! tinyurl.com/2v82r9 #
• 14:51 ‘Tis lunchtime: chili leftovers and some reruns. Then a shower. I promise! I totally plan on practicing good hygiene for at least half day. #
• 15:15 Do you ever feel like you can’t wonder aloud about anything or comment at all unless you’ve googled & researched it thoroughly first? #
• 16:31 Immediate drying using round brush and more styling goo that I’m used to has resulted in first successful episode of styling my new haircut. #
• 20:18 I’ve been working on a new mix to play during my shows and building promo galleries. Takes me forever & ten days to finish anything. #
• 22:54 I have become one of those laughable freaks who is TOTALLY INTO American Idol & takes it seriously. People watching our spycams may laugh. #
• 23:03 Working on standardizing our members-only areas by tweaking my design for the rest of them with different colors, fonts, etc. #
• 00:47 It’s been SUPER windy, which is probably why our main net connection is down, & with it most of our cams. #
• 00:49 Need to go to sleep but now I feel like I have to stay up waiting for our connection to return & juggling cams since Rude seems down too. #
• 00:52 Okay — I logged our Rude cams into Housecamz using our DSL & am now going to check to see if the cable is back up for audio cams. #
• 01:32 Cable still going down and up; can’t stay awake all night reconnecting cams so we’re going to sleep with just the HouseCamz up. Goodnight! #

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• 09:33 This is the time AFTER I’ve completed my quick AM routine (cams up? email emergencies?) that I need to step away & come back later to work. #
• 12:36 Just completed my Monday morning bill-pay / checkbook-balancing ritual. It should depress me but I usually enjoy it (as I did today). #
• 12:57 Coaching self: "Rise from chair. Go to bedroom computer. Check off completed to-do’s. Stretch? Eat lunch? Attack next to-do! GET UP!!!!" #
• 14:11 Downloading a bunch of This American Life to iPod as alternative to television tonight. Plus some truly dorky new age music; I love!!! #
• 15:12 Mmmm!!! Delia brought home yummy green grapes & it’s sunny out so they taste like May. She’s going to make wraps for lunch. I’m LUCKY!! #
• 15:13 Taking off all of my clothes to lie in our sunny parlor eating grapes like bon bons. #
• 17:16 About to build some promo galleries & listen to my FAVORITE totally embarrassingly dorky SCA-styled music disc. #
• 18:31 Disconnecting our Parlor Cam to free up resources for Delia’s webcam show at the top of the hour. #
• 18:35 Got distracted by high school memories brought back by The Mechanical Universe: www.learner.org/resources/series42.html #
• 19:29 Industry friends: if you’re bored, methinks an argument is brewing here between "Hammer" and I: tinyurl.com/ytowj6 #
• 21:41 Had some chili in bed while we watched Heroes (still getting caught up on 1st season). Going to take a call with my wanker. #
• 23:46 Yay! I love getting paid to talk about real dolls and get good feedback on my site. Thanks, "Anchor"! Time to take a bath & go to bed. #

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• 09:09 Ooooh; it was SO windy last night! Rattling the windows/doors, windy. Delia stayed up really late making me a quiche so she’s still in bed. #
• 09:53 I like how my birthday is stretching out into an entire week to include Easter. It’s fucking AWESOME, & what makes being a webwhore great. #
• 14:43 Just got back from buying dog food & getting keys made for our latest hand-me-down vehicle. I always love going into the hardware store. #
• 15:04 God almighty — what the FUCK is wrong with sponsors who suspend webmasters for being inactive? Way to shoot yourself in the foot. #
• 16:20 I’m really sleepy, heavy, relaxed and dizzy. But in a good way. They’re not feelings, though, that lead to high productivity. #
• 16:39 Just wasting time waiting for the appropriate amount of time to pass for me to begin eating again. Is 4.5 hours long enough to have waited? #
• 16:41 If I had a laptop that wasn’t 11 years old and wasn’t chained to webcams, I would totally be in bed being productive right now. #
• 20:10 Spent a couple of hours brainstorming, taking notes on fantasies, & making lists. Now in my office which stinks of my poop-scented farts. #
• 23:00 Debating when to take a pregnancy test & whether or not to videotape it: tinyurl.com/35j62c #
• 00:00 Going to do some stretching in our moonlit parlour. My neck and back and shoulders really need it. And hips. #
• 00:51 I would be content to just sit outside filming the clouds blazing across the moon. #

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• 10:10 Ahhh, morning! Glad my headache is gone. Have to clean up me and my room for shows today. #
• 10:36 Fantastic! I love having an early poop on my show days. I just hope there’s not another one waiting in the wings . . . #
• 11:28 Need to jump in the bath for a shave. Not even going to wash my hair for fear of a bangsy styling fuck-up for my shows. #
• 12:52 Getting cams all set up for show to start in 8 minutes. #
• 14:17 My show was marvelously calm & enjoyable. Was a really nice surprise to have such nice people in chat during a softcore show. Splendid! #
• 14:27 There was even lots of frank talk of me saying I only do certain things for money w/out anyone freaking out about what a mean whore I am! #
• 16:11 Had mexican for lunch then jumped Delia’s ex-wife’s car that she just gave to us; going to go drive it around to get it all juiced up. #
• 17:29 I need to get ready for my next show in 30 minutes. Considering wearing same legwarmers, cupless bra & sheer black blouse as in 1st show. #
• 17:42 Brrrr . . . I need to turn up the heat or I’ll never be able to take off my clothes to get "sexy". Still trying to decide what to wear. #
• 23:38 Was trying to make an ipod compatible version of my show archive from today, but software was giving me grief & editing down so blagh. #
• 00:39 Added a few new galleries to trixie.com/ — Delia’s working on her members-only update & I’m ready to go to sleep. I feel cozy/good. #
• 00:43 I let Delia off the hook: no church tomorrow (what I asked for my bday present); instead she’s making us breakfast in bed. Mmmmm. . . yum! #

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• 09:40 REALLY ready for family to go home. I think they are ready, too. I will be burrowing into blankets, soft coma & comfort food when they go. #
• 09:41 But before that, I think I should write down some of the GOOD things we talked about for my mom. She needs praise. Like a ten year old. #
• 09:49 Guess that alt payment processor everyone’s using for bloody porn isn’t an option anymore: tinyurl.com/2wdcpr #
• 11:01 Sigh. Biggest waste of money & calories is going to eat w/someone who drives me crazy. Will only want to eat more when I get home. LEAVE!!! #
• 13:06 Feeling 23 pounds lighter now that my mom left. Not only is she crazy, but *I* act like a total fucking asshole when she’s around me. #
• 14:44 Car troubles galore at our house. Ours AND sister’s car not starting. PLEASE let their car start so they can go home. PLEASE PLEASE! #
• 15:17 Phew! Their car started so they’re gone; as soon as Delia goes to the gym, I’m getting into my comfort zone/nest/bed with food. FOOD! #
• 18:16 Are my boobs bigger? Am I nauseated because of cheese or did I catch whatever my bro-in-law had or ___? I’m dizzy. #
• 19:15 Going to take a bath. My eyelids are on fire. But that’s not why I’m taking a bath. I’m taking a bath because my asshole stinks. #

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