12/11 After Midnight

December 12, 2024

Trixie ACCOMPLISHMENTS, GRATITUDE Leave a comment

In order to go to bed with a little less self-loathing:

Accomplishments:

*DOOR DRAFT BLOCKER – I measured two doors, put on clothes, and went downtown to the hardware store where I stared at the available options. Picked out two things, came home and “customized” one for the cabin. Will save money on electricity, make it easier / more comfortable to work, and block out some noise in addition to weather.

*TRIMMED (months-overgrown, gross) PUBES – outside with scissors & “personal groomer”. It’s something, anyway, but I still smell like old man piss.

*DID NOT (actively) ADD TO THE SUFFERING – not anyone else’s, anyway. I feel like my wife is suffering because of me, though, and other people who I’m “neglecting”. Being mired in these thoughts of shame and guilt of course added to my own suffering, but I did not do or say anything hurtful to anybody other than myself today. Ooops though I just remembered I glared at a woman in the parking lot who appeared to think I walking through it should yield to her in her SUV.

*A LOAD OF DISHES – started them, soaked them, washed them, and wiped down / tidied the kitchen counter.

Gratitude:

I’m grateful / (for) …

*hot running water and indoor plumbing

*my new improved cabin / door & warmth & coziness!

*my wife got to work safely and came home safely

*plenty of food to eat right here at home in our fridge, etc. and clean water to drink.

*nobody said or did anything mean to me (to my face, anyway) today

*clarity / hearing back quickly today from a job I applied for. I did not get it but I’m glad to know already and move on to the next … whatever.

*I still have hopes and dreams and things I look forward to doing

The Ritzy Cane

August 22, 2023

Trixie Curiosity, Curiosity Adventures, go on curiosity adventure, Not Exactly Top Priority, Signature Strengths Leave a comment

QUESTION: what kind of cane is featured in puttin on the ritz?

ANSWER FROM CHATGPT:
The song “Puttin’ on the Ritz” has been performed by various artists over the years, but the version you might be referring to is the one originally popularized by Fred Astaire in the 1930 musical film “Puttin’ on the Ritz.” In the film, Fred Astaire famously dances while using a white-tipped black cane, which becomes an integral part of his performance.

The cane itself is often referred to as a “top hat cane” or a “gentleman’s cane.” It’s a stylish accessory that was commonly used by gentlemen during that era and added an elegant flair to their attire. In the context of the song and dance routine, the cane is used as a prop to enhance the choreography and rhythm of the performance.

REALLY???

While the answer I was looking for is what AI gave me (that is totally the cane I was envisioning, a la costume Taco remake, and what I envisioned Fred Astaire used in Blue Skies), it is not accurate re: Fred Astaire. He uses a regular CANE cane (too lazy to go on a follow-up curiosity-adventure to reveal what those are called) that I associate with dance performances (belly dancers, vaudeville, etc.) – I think they use them because they are light / more useful as dance and trick props.

Wanted for this graphic for a post I’m writing:

One Hour Photo & Bling Ring

August 22, 2023

Trixie Appreciation of Beauty & Excellence, Curiosity, Media Log, misc notes & ideas, Movies, Not Exactly Top Priority, To Do, To Write Leave a comment

ONE HOUR PHOTO

started to rewatch today by myself with brunch – only watched once before and since have never quite been able to remember why other people’s raves of it felt off, but I think it’s because I didn’t want him to be the villain / like … why can’t that (very relatable to me) person and job / setting be gifted to us as protagonists in movies / be more moderate / not so totally off-the-rails? I think it also always annoyed me hearing at the time how GOD SO SHOCKING ROBIN WILLIAMS PLAYING A CREEPY SCARY WEIRDO GUY totally rolled my eyes at that disbelief normal people have, like a precursor to their bizarre shock over Mrs. Doubtfire hanging himself. Now we have books like Convenience Store Woman which I think is who I longed for this character to be allowed to be.

Glad to finally be rewatching (at least the beginning of it) for some beautiful lines, ambience, shots, etc.

  • TO DO:
    • write down some of these favorite lines from one-hour photo / PW
    • incorporate into post for BR (or ?) re: photo I took after fight w/mommy
      • the why? & weird! from sister
      • add decision made a few years ago never to hesitate or feel self-conscious about taking pictures of things if I get the urge
        • it is my JOB
        • it brings me JOY
        • & also, yes, I am a weirdo (IT WAS GROTESQUELY BEAUTIFUL, UNIQUE & WOULD BE HARD FOR SOMEONE OTHER THAN ME TO KNOW WHAT THEY ARE LOOKING AT)
        • it is a manageable way of being a hoarder
        • an efficient way to journal (how that daily emotions app check in thing helped & the memories are so much better than like iphone auto-created ones)
        • it is how I remember stuff my empathy in dysfunctional relationships might allow me to forget
        • it is a reality / honesty check – documenting something I am ashamed of

BLING RING

started with dinner last night with D, thinking we were about to rewatch the documentary (series?), but it was the dramatized movie

not as terrible as I anticipated it would be, but still really useless and kind of lame / I’d rather just rewatch the doc

I don’t understand the casting of Emma – it must be the kind of thing insiders in industry do like they think it’s really impressive to see her in this unlike-her-typecast role but really for most audience it is just unbelievable and awkward / hard to suspend disbelief / it’s such an American role should just BE AN AMERICAN GIRL

there’s something extra-exploitative, I always think, about these dramatized based-on-a-true-story things, and the doc really helps highlight how off it is.

I do think Leslie Mann was a pretty good fit for the mom, from what I could tell. I pretty much love it whenever she is fit into anything, though.